Part of me wants to hold you, the other half is scratching my head confused.  You went back to a grown man that acts like a child.  I still love you, I still want the world for you, but this confusion is something else. Is this what you crave? A man baby that acts like a drunken idiot and apologies are the salve that cleanses your own palette, while I try and properly right my wrongs and do what you need and deserve? My mind races at these thoughts. Why would you stay with an abusive person?  One that does not get his way and destroys things? Dude is almost 40. What in the ever loving fuck? Drunk was not an excuse with me, hold him to the same standard.
    Being a dick then apologizing is apparently this guys forte.  You have mentioned numerous times before his transgressions against you , and time after time you forgave. When is it going to be enough? I am mad for you, love you with everything. How can you not see this?  And yet I feel like the one disposable. The world has gone mad it seems.
    All I wish for is to give you a world free from such drama and bullshit, please let me.

    Please.